Saturday, October 29, 2005

hmmm......guess i wont be bloggin tht much at this point of time...exactly 1more week till o levels...i juz gt to knw tht hari raya is on wednesday...its a festive occasion!!!but this is year is juz like..way out of my life due to studies...e heart is beatin faster...the anxios and nervousness vibe is higher...ouh man...its either u pass..or fail...black or white...win or loose...i hav to be prepared!!!!buck up maman!!!i knw u uve nv thought ure gonna end up in o levels all ure life....but u r in tht war now and u hav to fight it..dun be a PuSsy!!!!


studied wif yayan...heehehx.....nt forgettin clara and ruz also..yea...didnt touch on my art...paper 2 is up on da 15th next month...chop chop chop..no time to loose aite maman...man..im soundin like a faggot....anyway..this post is to da cHieF a.k.a RuZ......thanks for da math session juz now man....=)...will treasure it...haven been meetin amy for days...no offs uh bro??chill out....it all pays man!!!cash cash cash.....so wad cha buyin now??i juz cant stop playin and singin the song "more den words" on da guitar....so meaningful....its by eric clapton....waddaya expect!!!




Sayin' I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you Not to say it, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

Now that I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I'd already know

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

love u......love u nt....

urGhhZ!!!!!!!!im freakin broke rite now...all my money spent....sigh sigh sigh...400 bucks gone in 2 days....weird.but i bought so lil things....BlEaH....counted everythin back and its like way out man...wheres the other 50 bucks went to??bought a ben davis 3 quads...and a slogan shirt frm "da cave"...ermm...1 top frm zara.....1 jeans frm topman...had my haircut...gt "semi" dooped by facial....toilettries...thts all...gawd...


well today...woke up at arnd 1...den juz slack arnd ma room..gt another 100 frm dad last nite....so went to town..juz wearin so slack...cuz it was rainin...walk at topshop...den was headin to breadtalk.passin by marriot hotel when i met lan...wad a coincidence....so he treated me for a "drink" at e hotel restaurant...so nt expected...n since i told him i was headin for my luch...he treat me lunch...since he's e supervisor..theres discount.....but e total bill for e both of us for lunch in 100 plus..like wad da!!!!we were sittin at e smokin area where theres passer by...n i get e strange look frm malays like..."y e hell is this kid sittin here in mariott drinkin..."weird looks man...damn...shud hav tried magaritta man...urghhz!!!


den headed back hm...met ruz to study a lil...exams r drawin nearer...wOoO....no updates frm her.....guess shes bz??guess so??im beat man....after finishin this famous amos and milk...im off to bang da bed......

Monday, October 24, 2005

past days.....

well...well..well...its been awhile since i last blog...damn...juz tht ma comp is juz makin shits..ViRuS!!!!!!!!!!!FaRk!!quite alot of things happened..like.....plannin to shift house??ermmm........bout yayan's birthday and how it ended...haha....nt forgettin bout da MARTINI..credits to matthew!!!!!..wad more.....gettin sort of like DoOped for goin facial...haha....thts gay man..


okidokie...wad abt today...woke up at 12...had my guitar lessons....been like 3 weeks of nt meetin jez...hahax...so learnt RHuMbA style playin......sort of like....spanish cum latin...=)..kinda hippie..but juz kills da fingers man....so after tht headed to TPY alone..hahax.....walked arnd...nth nice to buy...so juz bought sum toilettries...den headed to lavender to get a sandal...damn.....wad i wanted doesnt hav e size...damn shitty....den juz gt another design...ok..den headed back to tpy and had a haircut at "dE eLeMenTz"....the service is gud..but...the cut wasnt fantastic...BZ salon...waddaya expect...like kanchiong like tht....rather cut at HaIr aRt sTuDio....


e night on yayan's birthday was kinda alrite la i must say....juz spent like 3 hrs or so...met up at nite..dad sent me there by car...he stopped right infront of da girls....and i cudnt even recognise...so there were natalie...ppl startin to call her PE'Eh....and..gerri..e long awaited and final one to meet...clara and.........yayan....den ruz came...den headed to taka to meet up wif amy...bla bla bla...chit chat...yayan gotta be hm early..haha...poor thing....but since amy wasa salesman...he managed to convince her to stay up juz abit later...hahax....but it ended up bein VERY late....e bus was so late....and i wanted to pee....sum of da pics wud be up soon...anithin juz blame clara...haha....



........................maybe....some things r juz betta off unsaid...
but still...its juz hard to bury everythin inside....
tryin to forget...tryin to stay away...
just tryin to find a solution...
y am i falling??
is it cuz u made me to??
or am i juz a fool??
i miss u............

chillin out...ruz emo...haha... Posted by Picasa

this is er.....outside cinie i think....candid....its waitin for rUz...late!! Posted by Picasa

Thursday, October 20, 2005

OOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!STUPID CANDID SHIT....errr....bout ruz...i dunnoe wadsup wif him... Posted by Picasa

ruzz????where ya at man??i cant remember takin this pic..well..i aint smilin...i was sick..hahahahhaa... Posted by Picasa

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

certified skipper....

well....it has been 2 days straight chillin at yayan's place..i gotta say its all cool..yesterdae didnt study much..think didnt study at all...-_-...i came den like after half an hour...headed to yayan's place to watch incredible tales..jeEz...a tale tht ive watched b4 already...Jun tEk...............Jun tEk......pathetic muthapHucka!!!after tht was amrica's next top model!!=)...tht was cool...and watched a bit of viva la bam too...wait wait...nt forgettin dangdut n wrestling wif his dad...damn..now im juz worried for da o's...time is passin by...this cummin thursday is the science practical exams...urgHhz...im nt gonna flunk for my chem...pls!!i dunwan to!!!im juz so freak out...


to joyce pinky..dun be too down yea...hearin bout ure life in JC juz makes me speechless...seems like its so stressful and all..juz dunnoe wad to say...but ure stronger den me...an i knw tht..by the way u said to me how u felt and all.....it shows U R stronger den me...much much stronger...e way u can motivate ureself...twistin ure views and all..


so i bumped onto my so called ex??haha...at yck mrt station after i finish my trainin...i was like..wad da..............hahahax....k..shudnt say more..we shall do sum catchin up one day...and all e best for ure O's yea??for now im damn damn shag...juz feelin so lethargic(thanks ruz for tht word)...migraine!!!!!!!!!!!needa rest now....btw , yayan....thanks for da food and all yea...the indian dougnut...dunnow wad is it called...the roti boyan...the puffs....the honeyed chicken...the ice cream...the bird nest drink...the panadol....haaaa.......nv regretted smilin at ya in da bus and gt to knw ya..haha....and hope u like my frends....especially amy...haha....hu always punk'd ya arnd...muahaha....and 1 piece of advice....beware of da thin tissue stuffin in ure ear hole...haha....


to all o level candidate....all e best to ure practical examinations...may u nt break any test tubes or wadever...no gd luck....coz luck shudnt play any part in ure marks...


u get wad u deserve...u deserve wad u get....
i will be deservin wad i get...=X

Monday, October 17, 2005

Jarangan Jengkol...

sigh sigh...comp gt infected again...getin worst and worst...
i was bored...browse through da channles on tv..
gt stuck on this particular indo show tht was showin ..
so i watched it...till e end..
cant believe my eyes was watery at e ending..
it was a love show..
1 thing i learnt...no matter how hard u say to ureself for instance...u dun wanna feel a certain way or sorts...
u cant...u can nv will....
coz feelings is juz sumthin one cant control..
coincidence...
suddenly...
unexpected...
shockin...N
confused...
its a story bout a girl..fallin in love wif a rich guy...shes a poor girl...tomboy..juz a village girl...carryin her beloved chicken arnd...
e guy's rich...a well knwn celeb...livin in a big house..
bottom line is..they're frm 2 different worlds...
e guy didnt care..at all...but his dad likes her..
she changed herself so much tht she'll be like his standard wif e help of his dad...
she suceeded physically...
after a month...she heard him tellin his dad tht he doesnt like e girl...e girl ran away cryin...
when she gt hm..she met her frend...a guy..village guy..
she said to him...."i juz cant forget him...i was so in love with him tht im willing to do anything..."
her frend said.."i knw how u feel...cuz i hav felt e same way when i was in love wif u...when u left e village for tht guy...i was sad...but i said to myself...all tht matters is tht hopefully in e end..you'll be happy...and i shall be happy for u too..."gue tau prasaan lo deh..kerna bila lo tinggalin kampong kerna gilakan jerry...gue juga rasa begitu.gapapa aja....tapi..pokoknya nanti lo gembira......."
e rich guy thought abt it over....e next mornin...he went to da village...lookin for da girl...she didnt accept him...she thought it wasnt possible as they both r frm different world as wad she had overheard him sayin to his dad..and since tht he's rich...his love wasnt pure...
e guy cried...he waited...and waited outside her house..
standin..
waitin for an answer...
showin tht his feelings was pure....
thunder banged.....
it rained....
till da next morn...
da girl kept cryin...being confused...
da next morn...after e guy hav been standin in da rain da whole nite....she came out wif a towel...wrap it arnd him...and wiped his face...
hugged him...whispered in his ear sayin i love u...( gue sayang banget ma lu....)

it was a great show...mayb e summarisation wasnt clear...but e show really moved me...i am a teenager..maybe it is nataural for me to experience this and feel this way....hopin for her to reach out her hands....knwin tht she'll always be by my side...knwin tht im nv alone...there r pros and cons in a relationship...but one shud dare to face the cons of it...coz no matter wad...at least they hav shared their love for one another rather den keepin it to themselves...wadever it is...its life...N attracts S...vice versa...i tried so hard nt to think abt it...but still...as i said...u cant control it...expressing it on e guitar has been boring...im nt askin for pitiness...


wadever it is...stay pure and hav faith...
it doesnt matter if u dun see her where u hav expected her to be...
even after 3...4 days...a week..or a mnth...doesnt matter...
juz b pure...
doesnt matter if u tried to communicate but she juz reply wif a sentence or doesnt reply at all...
let e heart do e work....
this is to noone........but me...sorry if its too mushy...

Sunday, October 16, 2005

unholy confession......

guess this is gonna be quite a long post...yea..been awhile since i blogged...k..startin frm wad i did today..well..woke up at 2 i guess...went hm kinda late last nite...yea...den after tht watch the transporter..cool movie man...check it out!!den after tht left hm at 5 30..met clara at town at 6...so walked arnd..bla bla bla..had my dinner..was wearin really man today....haha..can check it out in da pics soon...i hope...haha...k den..had a lot of things in mind on wad to get for amy's birthday..hahaha...but damn..money was tight...sorry amy!!!so when met up wif ruz...straight away bought da sleeveless adidas for his jogging...clara bought for him a bag..also frm adidas...in between bump onto yayan's ex's girlfrend...(clara..i was jokin bout her yea...dun get e wrng idea tht i find her hot..)..haha...clara was like kinda confuse on which bag to get..haha...chill mate...we'll go out again den i'll choose..haha..and clara..i gotta add this...wad were u thinkin!!u wanna get in da changin room wif me!!!haha.wad da heck...

so after tht i tank alone..haha....had 2 breda's...gosh..taste like shit without redbull...juz headaches...nth much...juz wanna get the things in my head off..so headed to taka to chill for awhile while i had my breda's..hehehex...den off to hometown..zone b to meet amy...glad tht he liked the presents..haha..good good..still havin my headache..damn...and also..i gotta add this...did a candid on ruz and clara..gosh...like..like...doin a ............blowjob!!!haha....will post it also...for sure..

p.s..guys...nice playin wrestling...haha...figure 4 leg was damn pain la!!!and to hui ting..a classmate of mine..happy birthday to u!!!ure 17 now!get taller la!!!hahaha..kiddin yea shorty...no lucks for ure o's coz luck shudnt play any part in ure results..hehex..all da best man...

1. Where are you right now?-ma rOom...
2. How's your mood today?-lil TiPsY...hehex...
3. What song are you listening to at the moment?- shake by pitbull ft. tony yayo
4. Do you think your crush/lover is sexy ?-erMmM...in every way..
5. One reason for living?- takin advantage of life to e fullest....u live......and..u die...
6. Ever donated blood ?- no..no..no...
7. Fave color? Fave number?-white plus green...odd numbers...
8. Fave accessories you usually wear?- anklet tht always sticks wif me...bling bling..white or black wrist band..
9. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?-mayb all i hav by jlow and ll cool j??
10. Last time you went out with your friends- 2 hrs ago...
11. Last time you said love?- just now...everytime in my heart...
14. Last movie you watched?- the transporter!!!.
15. Fave cartoon series?- simpson!!!
16. Fave Disney Character ?- e chipmunks?
17. Most interesting activity?- painting
18. Most boring tv programme?- malay drama??sandirwara..haha
19. Ever wished you could turn back time?- maybe..maybe nt...but juz le bygons be bygons yea??
22. What do you have planned for tomorrow?- no plans yet man...hopefully does
23. Your biggest regret?- to many to name it all...been regrettin all my life..
24. Are you a people person?- i guess..at times...depends on da "people"
25. Do you think you're cute/pretty/handsome?- tht..in every way i guess....
26. Last game you played? - wanted to play chi ko pak...den wrestling...
27. Who's no. is on your speed dial?- ruz..amy..
28. The colour of your mobile phone. - black..and bits of silver due to scratches
29. Do you hate anyone? Have any enemies?- guess so...hope it'll dissolve
30. Who do you wish is with you at the moment?- god...she...anyone hu cares to lend a shoulder..
31. where do you feel like going?- tanking.....
32. Fave vacation places?- no idea man/
33. What are you looking forward to this month?- havin confidence doin my exams..
34. What was the last thing you wished for?- for one to be initiative and open up..
35. what are you gonna be in the future?- a jackass crew....fixing cars...or personal trainer.
36. What you like to do during free time?- stoning...
37. Favourite types of song?- im versatile...
38. Ways that you wish your lover/crush to behave ?- knwin when to hav fun..knwin wad is relationship...opening up...honesty...faithfulness.....
39. What is currently in your mind now?- i'll leave this blank........
40. What you gonna do after this?- stare at da wall...drink my tea...read through notes...

Thursday, October 13, 2005

-b+-squareoot)bsquare-4ac/2a

skipped sch today...gosh..thought of coming back for art but my freakin teacher wont let..fuck man..juz hate her...shes like quietly evil..get wad i mean??as ive said many times to myself..how i wish the art students wud do their art on their OWN..no help....cuz its like can be said..75 % of the student's art piece is frm her...and juz because im e only malay guy in the art class...damn..i dunwanna say shes racist or anithin..but she IS showin it...thts y the other 2 malay guys juz cant stand her den dropped art..im al on my own now...yesterdae there was this another art teacher frm dunnoe where..came to look arnd..he didnt say a word when he looked at others work..but we came to me he was like.."beautiful colours u hav there..the texture r fine.."...den i was like..replied havin the intention to let my art teacher hear sayin..."i did it in 5 days without ANY help...."...den the guy looked at my teacher..juz really happy tht sum of da hatred is out..

thought of studyin chem juz now..but i juz had to close da book half way through.-_-..cant understand a single sHiT..damn....hopin for clara to help me understand..bit by bit...hopefully..yayan is on wrestling..gosh..no matter wad..1 day she will be splash into da sea frm us..KiKkIki....so..next mon is amy's birthday...one of da trios..for now..juz wanna wish tht our frendship wud last...CheeRs....den friday its yayan's...=).there's still sum other people birthday in between.gosh...so many october babies...

Sunday, October 09, 2005

look at the eyes!!!!!!! Posted by Picasa

the end.... Posted by Picasa

ruz is flyin high in his own land... Posted by Picasa

chEErs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Posted by Picasa

peace!!!clara and me...the A1 student and the.....k..lets nt mention... Posted by Picasa

is bryo takin a pic of me or his pinky?!? Posted by Picasa

peace....breda + redbull = dumbfCuK in heaven... Posted by Picasa

da nite of a fastin mnth..wad da.....chillin out..ruz caught in action!!!!!!!!!ahahahaa... Posted by Picasa

da 3 bros...scary kids scaring kids..hElLyea!!!!dats..chief...bryo..and raza.. Posted by Picasa

as usual...da 3 amigos..3 musketeers...wadever u wanna call..dodo..playtupus and dude...or u wanna call it...adika..adinda...terune...outside taka chillin...ruz and me aint lookin at his asshole!!!candid..damn! Posted by Picasa

aite aite...it started out well..this is outside taka's toilet..where da ball starts rollin...clara and me..sucha mother like...but yet.....nt a heartbreaker..but a mp3........muahahaha!!!!! Posted by Picasa

totally off da chain!!

thought is was gonna be a boring saturday nite man..pratically stayed at hm da whole den den off to town at arnd 845??so headed there wif ruz...den after tht met clara and amy and yayan there...yayan brought 2 of her frends...ain da doink and her bf..=) chilled outside taka..bla bla bla..tht clara was so upset breakin amy's mp3..=X..gawd..its like broken into pieces man..feel sorry for ya bro...but nano's cummin rite???hahax...burnin a hole in ure pocket..yayan oso was like trippin on us...guess i irritated her quite a lot...=X..ruz was down..hahax....chil bro!!i knw we missed the indochine party..we actually planned to club on tht nite but shit happens..so yayan and amy went off.amy was leavin to bishan for a midniht movie...leavin me..ruz and clara..we're like wonderin..so where da hell shud we go...decided to walk infrnt of indochine to see da crowd...haha..heartpain sia!!den bump onto bryo and razz..yeaH!!!!!!

tht is when e fun started..but i can see frm ruz's eyes tht he really wanna get in da club..haha...tagged along wif razz and bryo for tanking...(new word for drinkin)..been a long time since i met razz man...used to sk8 together...gt to knw bryo frm ruz...so we thought of tanking outside cinie..but it was a crowd man...so headed to P.S instead...i was totally broke man...thanks guys..owe ya guys one..so they bought breda's and redbull.pHeW!!nice man..bryo gt kinda wasted...luffin all da way and all...peeing on a frog.like WTF!!!hahaha..ruz was kinda reluctant at first.haha...but he juz !@#$ it..haha.it was like 2 30 already and my dad's nt callin..so all breda finish already..wanted to buy again but no sellin of alchohol after 2 am...like WTF!!!haha..

so headed down to meridien and gt heniken..haha...can say everyone is a LIL tipsy...except for clara..shes an exception.haha..so headed to centrepoint to take night rider...i puked all da way...shIt!!!thinkin tt bryo's gonna puke first...disgusting man...shit!!!!pics wud be up soon...=)...ruz...razz...bryo...myself...ChEeRs!!!!!!clara...juz eat chips and plain water..ahaha....-_-..

Saturday, October 08, 2005

yea..this is me.. Posted by Picasa

outside taka wif da origami freak....-_-... Posted by Picasa

take 2....blur... Posted by Picasa

take 1......this pic her face looks like nyonya..sigh.. Posted by Picasa

cant stand da camera...tts lyn beside me..scary eyes uh?? Posted by Picasa

.............bored??? Posted by Picasa

amy!!!gt candid when he came.. Posted by Picasa

finally we meet again...

skipped sch...gawd..sigh sigh..wads up wif u maman??!kkk...frm next week onwards...stayin back every single day till late to finish up my canvas for art..5 days is all ive gt man...u knw u can man..and i knw i can..

woke up like 10 am juz now..chilled in ma room..sittin infrnt of da comp till like 3??den planned to meet lyn...old pri sch mate..haha..gosh..its been like 5 years of nt meetin..wonder how it'll gonna be like..and i had breakouts...jEeZ!!!!!how embarrassing...


so met her at orchard mrt and 4 30..walked arnd and all...bla bla bla...seriously hav no where to go man..planned to eat at far east..but ended up eatin at cinie BK...talked abt pri sch life and all..how she used to be an origami freak...n nt forgettin selfish to even lend a eraser or pencil...bLeAh...!!after tht walked arnd again..played wif her digi cam.haha...all the way man..and the battery went off so fast...gawd!!!took pics after pics...den met amy..he's frm work...chilled out abit..bla bla bla.den we're off hm..nice meetin ya lyn!!!its been so long!!!but gawd...i miss ure dad man...(GTST) haircut...meet ya again soon..=)

p.s ...GTST is gunting tengah simpan tepi///=X

Thursday, October 06, 2005

reluctant.....

to tell da truth..i dun hav much say or views bout the situation now..to ma homies..u shud knw wad im talkin bout here..first of all..we're terribly sorry man..yes..we're at fault partly too..but hav been feelin reluctant frm da start..you called me askin me who im wif...i lied to u..yes i admit..its da same if u called any one of us man...we've been feelin reluctant...wantin her to ask for ure consent IF shes wants to go out..y??i tink tt she'll explain to ya...ask her all u wanna knw aight...i feel she owes ya a real explanation...
when u gotta knw bout this...i admit..i was feelin a lil relief..facin da fact tt u knew..ive...i mean we've been tellin ourself tht the truth wud speaks for itself..a mice cant runaway frm a cat in an open space for long....we dunwanna hav anithin kept between one another man..c'mon...8 years of frendship..since like pri 3??i knw u N u knw me..simple as tht..u msged me b4.."!@#$ u...we made it together for psle...together for N levels..O levels sure can one..u old man...."...remember??i still keep tt msg in my archive..hope tt spirit wont fade cuz of this...
but thts nt it man...its ure mom...nt only tht i knw ya for years...i knw ya mom too...ure family..neigbours man...living juz right infrnt of one another...im nt against her or anithin...i do knw abit bout her too when shes angry...its juz tht y am i e guy...the special one to get accused...u knw hu im interested in and hu im nt suppose to..gawd....she gt a bad impression on me and all...and u msgin me to avoid her...now...i cant be a sponge...i cant accept this...i dun mean to be rude aight......till den..juz dunwanna emphasize on this part...

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

.........

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in

7th grade,
we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral Years passed,
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: "I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! I wish I did too...

I thought to my self, and I cried.......useless cryin over a spilled milk...

Monday, October 03, 2005

wAy cOol...

well..its a sunday..no plans at all..woke up at arnd 1??den watched sin city half way..den watch logest yard again..yea..givin bac the cd's tmr to my frends in sch..;) so went out wif ruz for lunch at bishan..as usual..bla bla bla...den walk arnd ntuc..basically surveyed every corner..haha..damn..lotsa things i wanna buy..toiletries..electric tooth brush!!go for teeth whitenin like bro does..yada yada yada...so den headed to ruz house to get his bike..but on da way bump onto my bro...hus livin there..so went out and chilled out for awhile..went to both of his rooms...he's occupyin 2 rooms while my step mom occupy the other room...UrggHz!!!havin an apartment under his own name..darn..

cant stop sayin wad da !@#$ and wad da hell man...haha..juz so mezmerised by his rm..1 room for sleepin..which queen size bed semi low height...wif screen projector for watchin movie on da bed...and like go disco light..sumthin like tt...so cozy..air conditioned..well designed.damn..the hight light of tt room is da toilet which is hidden behind the curtains...the shower is like spreaded out..the toilet bowl..behind is theres like music player wif speakers so when ure doin ure "buisness" theres music grooving.so its like ure shittin wif da rhythm...haha...
the other room is his study place..basically a plama tv juz chunk at the bottom of da room connected to a white ps2..limited edition...urgghz!!and all his games r original.-_-...his comp..bla bla bla...collections of toys...love da concept of the overall design man...but still..im the most good lookin out of all siblings..=X his cat!!!!its like wo man...2 and a half times my cat..same colour..but his was so fluffly like carpet...nv ever seen a cat tt big in my life b4..in reality i mean..so nice to play wif da fur..

after tt headed to our normal chillin place...den waited for amy to come back.chilled for awhile..den we're out...
clara and da gang didnt come...its like weird man...clara..if ure readin this..chill out yo..ure takin a small thing into a biggy..no worries man..frends r frends and'll always be..;)...juz dun be a pussy aight...hahahax...

Saturday, October 01, 2005

freaky friday on friday...and pRaTa hOuSe!!!

well...didn attend sch today..=X..woopsie...haha..woke up at 11..checked my cell...no replies..-_- so watched freaky friday...was ok la..so so...reminds me or tt ATT...haha.frekles all ova...den after tt juz chilled in room..chattin wif yan all the way..haha...sucha pity la tt doink....weather so nice and all...den clara sleepin...while shes still stuck wif her sch uniform smellin of canteen..=X..muahaha...so accompanied her all da way online...trainin gt called off cuz it was rainin...so yea...

den yan msged if we;re up for inner at prata house..i was cool wif it...bla bla bla..den met there....called ruz n e first thing he said was..."oh shit!!i overslept!!" i was like...gawd...haha..so guess he rushed down..haha..i had fried rize whice i didnt even finish half of it...juz went for the sake of...er....bored maybe...the bishan peeps was there..they looked at me.i was like...gawd!!i knew yan knws them..hahax...i juz 1 guy frm the group..ayid was there...ruz's close peep...smiled at him...hehex..funny guy la.hahax...

wont be havin guitar lessons tmr..hehex...watchin ring 2 is in my schedule..=) hope saturday wud be smooth...